January 2012
2 posts
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I love Obama to death but the stupid republican-headed congress pisses me off so much. it’s not just that they’re republican, there are good republicans, but it’s that they represent these extreme right ideologies that are not causing anything but harm. so don’t go blaming Obama because of congress. they are separate. Obama’s doing a pretty damn good job digging us out of the shithole Bush put us...
This is a personal blog
my normal blog is visitationofthegh0st.tumblr.com
i’ll be surprised if i get followers, i just need a place to let it all out
I post a lot of personal shit on my main blog, but less than here.
I haven’t used this blog for a while…..
currently I’m sick and want to die
lmao
August 2011
2 posts
i am hopelessly in love with a guy that i only see for two weeks every year, and the rest of the time he lives across the country. its been going on for three years, i guess that says something for my dedication, but i hate it.
he knows i exist, he knows my name, we’re friends on facebook, but we really don’t talk outside of that because he’s on a higher “popularity level” and i have shitty...
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so i’ve only known…TK… in person for 5 weeks. but i’ve known about him for the past three years and every time i see him for those two week periods, i fall hard. I can’t pinpoint exactly what draws me to him but its been three fucking years and every time i see him its like the beginning again. next year is my last year of sailing and it pains me to even begin to think about the fact that i might...
June 2011
4 posts
1 tag
the year isn’t quite over, but we have no more classes together
its been wonderful, love.
next year is going to be amazing but i won’t have you in it
yeah, you’re still going to the same school and everything, but instead of having three classes together… we’ll most likely have none. and that scares me.
thats why, tomorrow, after school is done, i’m going to...
wow, no more math class
i dislike the subject, but i got to know you. i love you so much and it sucks that you’re failing all the classes we have together so we most likely won’t have any classes together next year. i’m going to miss you so much it hurts. i had a chance! i really did. i looked at what you wrote in my yearbook, and even though it was just a funny picture and a few words and a signature, i started crying....
so there's this guy
and hes super cute and hilarious and sweet and adorable
but he’s stupid. really stupid.
and it makes me insanely sad. he has so much going for him, but no. he has a 30% in algebra 1. fucking algebra ONE. THIRTY PERCENT. he dropped german (the day before the final) because his grade was so low and the didn’t want it to affect his gpa. but his gpa is already shitty!!!!!
now i seem...
May 2011
13 posts
so i woke up with a song in my head
which is perfectly normal, right? except that I had never heard the song before. not the tune, not the lyrics, not anything. i could only remember one line “in my mind we were beautiful”, so i looked it up on google… there were no direct matches. i might be on to something here. i’m saving that line.
dear life, you suck
i feel like i’m slipping under the waves, which is extremely relevant because the thought of drowning terrifies me.
the waves are dark and full of pressure and bad thoughts.
i feel like no one actually likes me, they just put up a facade because they feel sorry for me.
the poor fat and ugly and stupid and worthless girl.
i can’t do anything right.
there’s nothing special...
call me crazy, but i don’t want to exist. i want to float away and never be seen again. i want to get out and be free.
thats it. i'm done.
they’re back together. i don’t have a problem with her anymore. i’m done with this shit. movin’ on. seriously, it’ll be a relief to be over him. its not gonna be easy though, which sucks. but i have someone else to focus my attentions on, and its almost summer and i won’t have to see him. i’ll miss the nickname ddk though. it was a nice nickname. maybe we...
i HATE my mom
she is so controlling and always makes me do stuff i don’t want to do and ugh i hate her i hate her I. HATE. HER.
like, she’ll let me go to concerts but make a parent be there. she’ll let me have cool electronic stuff (kinda cool, not really…), but limit my time on it. she’ll let me go to friends houses if she’s met the parents and seen the house. she...
i believe that i am going to start posting...
but not very many. just a few.
"you're not ugly, society is"
its true, yes… but only partially.
yes, i feel ugly when i look at models and celebrities, i really do
however, i also feel ugly when i look at the people around me. the normal people. the ones who think that they are ugly as well. but they really aren’t. they’re beautiful. there are so many pretty girls around me, and looking at them, thats when i feel ugly. I know that they...
i just realized that elaine follows me
haaaayyy qurl
i hate conflicting feelings so much.
i’ve been told to make up my mind, but when you really like two amazing people, making up your mind is way fucking harder than it sounds.
they’re both funny, sweet, cute, and fun. if you want more details, click the read more, but if you don’t care, which you most likely don’t, than ignore it.
i feel extremely comfortable talking to...
April 2011
5 posts
HALLELUJAH THEY BROKE UP
i feel like a total bitch for being happy about this cuz i know she must feel bad and he must be crushed but i’m a selfish bitch and am happyyyyyyy
YOU KNOW WHAT I FUCKING HATE?!
HOW SOME GODDAMN CHRISTIANS SPEW THEIR HOMOPHOBIC BULLSHIT. NOT ALL OF US ARE FUCKING IGNORANT ASSHOLES. HONESTLY. STOP GIVING US A BAD NAME.
FUCK ALL OF THE “SUPER-CATHOLICS”
FUCK ALL OF THE EVANGELISTS
FUCK THE WESTBORO BAPTIST CHURCH
as you can tell (yes the caps were necessary), some people fucking piss me off beyond belief. i’m a christian, and i love gay people. god...
Fuck you, [your name]. Fuck you for being so perfect and amazing and irrisistable.
Fuck you for being so enticing, for making me love you.
Fuck you for making my heart ache and the tears run and my mind wander.
Fuck you for being so oblivious. Fuck you for being so hilarious and cute and nice and amazing.
Fuck you for having so many friends and being so wonderful and making me feel...
i had a nightmare that you (the girl that i keep referring to here) read this blog, and i awoke feeling absolutely terrible.
i don’t hate you. seriously. these posts make it seem like i do, but i really don’t.
i hate how you’ve changed, but i’m happy for you. if i were you i would have ditched my sorry fat ass a longgg time ago.
i hate how you’re with him, but you...
i really should give up, shouldn’t i. not on life, nonono, but on you.
easier said then done.
i bet i’m cursed to love you forever.
this post isn’t even poetic. its a load of crap. my muse has failed me. not the point.
but honestly, i want to get over you, but I can’t imagine loving liking anyone else.
i dont wanna end up being a homewrecker, thats not my intention.
...
March 2011
1 post
i hate fake people. i hate them so much.
its not that i hate you, i hate how you’ve changed.
you were my best friend… now we might talk once every so often, but usually not
it really sucks how you ditched me
i mean, i’d ditch myself if i were you, but not completely
you are just so fake its painful.
and watching him with you, all over you, not physically, but so mentally
...
February 2011
1 post
dear dm
i hate you
meaning i love you
you said you didn’t like people like her. people who are always happy and peppy and bouncy.
like, i know i’m stupid, she’s smart, i’m fat, she’s skinny, she’s pretty, i’m average. shes talented, i’m not.
i’m just so fucking jealous. i’ve always been second best to her.
she used to be one of my best...
December 2010
3 posts
Christmas!!!
Ok, so I love Christmas. I love the presents, I love the lights, I love the trees, the ornaments, the music, I love my family, I love the no school, I love EVERYTHING about it.
But it used to be better.
I still find a huge amount of joy in Christmas every year, its my favorite holiday. But i miss… the magic?
Like, I loved believing that Santa was real. It was just such a wonderful...
ugh i feel like complete crap
i am so sick omfg and i have no friends around to hang with and we have like no presents cuz they’re all in fucking nantucket and we probably can’t go to tahoe for new years and i am SO BORED but i don’t wanna go back to school in a week and UGH
I want a boyfriend
js